A little hope!

Right now I need hope only hope in my life. I give up on everything, whatever I try I did but nothing I get it.

I did my best in whatever place I was, I try to give my best. As in view give your best that does not matter where you are, if you are in office or kitchen or taking care of kids or doing something which you don’t like But if you are doing give your best. There should be no retreat if I put more effort outcome would be different No give your best and then accept the outcome.

But feels like it is not right at all. I gave my best, and accept the outcome even sometimes with the sacrifices still, I have blamed and that is the person who said he understands me more than anybody. How and why….. After that, I have nothing to say or do.

My kid does not understand anything, he is too innocent. So he came to me and ask what happen and why your not smiling so out of nowhere I just said to him I gave up baby. I feel bad but the words are out and it’s in his mind. Now I am feeling how I am going to erase this thing, I am a bad mother how can I teach my child this.

He ran away and I started thinking about what to do now. What’s done it’s done, you can not change anything but after 15 min he came back with the paper and pen and he said I write you something amma and showed me. I have no words only a big smile with tears. I just Thank God for giving me such a precious gift and hugging my son.

Today I want to share with you, look around your hope is with you, open your eyes you can see.

He is 5 so he makes the speeling don’t go missing e just feel the imotions😊

Can you play with me Amma, For Two minute….

When I planed to start writing, there is all different topic in my mind, but as soon as I start, my little one came and said this words to me and then I ended up here πŸ™‚ .

This is the most adorable words which my son says to me always, yes always. I am full time Mother and still my son says to me, can you imagine when he got chance to say that words. I can help, when I cook, when I am cleaning, when I am bathing πŸ˜‰ , when I pic my phone or when ever I about to start something, after all day of playing with him and the moment I about to start he come to me and with his beautiful smile he says

Can you play with me Amma, For two minute, only for two minute please. And trust me when he says this to me, I can’t resist I immediately stop everything and start playing with him. It happens lots of time in a day but I keep enjoying this. I know he is growing fast (as I feel πŸ˜‰ ) and one day he is a big boy, then I am going to miss this tiny winy cute pai.

My mother used to talk about how was I am, when I was kid. she has all my sweet memories but after started my schooling she does not have any thing, whenever i ask she has simple answer that then you become big girl. she has memories, about my schooling achievement but no more that naughty girl moment.

That is the reason I don’t want to miss my son innocent time, the time which is with me always. Yes i do remember his all big things but whenever I site alone and try to remember then the first face is this one with cute smile, naughty eyes and one simple line “Amma can you play with me only for two minute” and after saying this his next line ” And you don’t count the minute” πŸ™‚ .

I never get this innocence again, I just want to live in the moment, i don’t want capture everything in the camera I want to capture in my eyes, in my memory. that’s the way I want to enjoy my Motherhood.

Being a mother, home maker and a women, who wants to achieve something, Some time its really difficult to manage the time, but when I look outside, there are mothers who taking care of kids, office , home everything and then I think I can do it at least I can try. I don’t want to be perfect I just want to be mother.

I always suggest to every new mother or going to mother, enjoy every single moment of motherhood it will never come again, if you miss it, then it’s gong forever. yes we are busy in our life, jobs, responsibilities but still we can get some time, the little one don’t ask for hours, they ask for some moment to laugh and play with you. so just get some time not all day only some time, sit with them and see how cute, how innocent they are, see their views for life, for world, you will be amaze or laugh but trust me my friend you will not lose any thing you will get something, something precious.

I have a lot to say, for me its never ending topic but my monkey wont allow to me, so simple get your best moment with your kid and enjoy every single moment of life.

Enjoying every moment with the toddler.