A little hope!

Right now I need hope only hope in my life. I give up on everything, whatever I try I did but nothing I get it.

I did my best in whatever place I was, I try to give my best. As in view give your best that does not matter where you are, if you are in office or kitchen or taking care of kids or doing something which you don’t like But if you are doing give your best. There should be no retreat if I put more effort outcome would be different No give your best and then accept the outcome.

But feels like it is not right at all. I gave my best, and accept the outcome even sometimes with the sacrifices still, I have blamed and that is the person who said he understands me more than anybody. How and why….. After that, I have nothing to say or do.

My kid does not understand anything, he is too innocent. So he came to me and ask what happen and why your not smiling so out of nowhere I just said to him I gave up baby. I feel bad but the words are out and it’s in his mind. Now I am feeling how I am going to erase this thing, I am a bad mother how can I teach my child this.

He ran away and I started thinking about what to do now. What’s done it’s done, you can not change anything but after 15 min he came back with the paper and pen and he said I write you something amma and showed me. I have no words only a big smile with tears. I just Thank God for giving me such a precious gift and hugging my son.

Today I want to share with you, look around your hope is with you, open your eyes you can see.

He is 5 so he makes the speeling don’t go missing e just feel the imotions😊

I love you !

I love you my sweetheart,

I love you more than anything,

Now we are husband and wife,

Yes things changed,

We fight a lot, instead love a lot,

I don’t remember when we had date,

We sit and talk, but it’s Home not us,

Or Home and us becomes One,

Yes we are husband and wife,

We don’t love like teenagers, we love like couple,

Now we can not stay together but we can not stay a part,

That’s us, funny but yes

I get it this the way we are going along,

I am happy, I with you,

On our 60th anniversary. I want to sit with you, complain about you,

I want to see that oldy look on your face and I will say with wicked smile, I knew that

That’s the way I want to celebrate, my love.

I know you will still not say anything, as always you will smile and will give me sweet look,

Love you my dear for, it’s only 6 years we are together,

For me it’s only 6 minutes, I want to annoy you more my love ❤️