A little hope!

Right now I need hope only hope in my life. I give up on everything, whatever I try I did but nothing I get it.

I did my best in whatever place I was, I try to give my best. As in view give your best that does not matter where you are, if you are in office or kitchen or taking care of kids or doing something which you don’t like But if you are doing give your best. There should be no retreat if I put more effort outcome would be different No give your best and then accept the outcome.

But feels like it is not right at all. I gave my best, and accept the outcome even sometimes with the sacrifices still, I have blamed and that is the person who said he understands me more than anybody. How and why….. After that, I have nothing to say or do.

My kid does not understand anything, he is too innocent. So he came to me and ask what happen and why your not smiling so out of nowhere I just said to him I gave up baby. I feel bad but the words are out and it’s in his mind. Now I am feeling how I am going to erase this thing, I am a bad mother how can I teach my child this.

He ran away and I started thinking about what to do now. What’s done it’s done, you can not change anything but after 15 min he came back with the paper and pen and he said I write you something amma and showed me. I have no words only a big smile with tears. I just Thank God for giving me such a precious gift and hugging my son.

Today I want to share with you, look around your hope is with you, open your eyes you can see.

He is 5 so he makes the speeling don’t go missing e just feel the imotions😊

Fun in the life #12

We need to teach our kids about everything, sometimes the most difficult one in the simplest form. The same happens to me.

Last night my son ask How come dada is a husband and I am a son, we both are boysπŸ€”

Me: I marry him so he is my husband one day you will get married so you become a husband.

My son: Whom I am going to marry?

Me: A girl, whom you like, love. She loves you, care for you.

My son: No I don’t want to marry, I already married with you. You are not dada’s wife you are my wife.

I feel happy but then I did something which he is not going to forgive me in the future. I make a video of all this conversation and decided that whenever he will come to me with his would-be then I will show him this video and deny his marriage saying you are already marriedπŸ˜‚

If something happens with you, do share. Keep enjoying life😊😊

My first Hindi poem… Duri

Hum sath hai
Raat din subha shaam
Hum sath hai
Tum office ke kaam me
Mai ghar ke sath mashgul
Hum sath hote hai table par
Par TV.. bacha.. bi sath hai
Hum har paal sath hai
COVID ne humra sath or bi bada Diya
Ab to charo pahar hum sath hai
Phir…. Phir bi wahi shikayat…
Phir bi wahi kasmkash…
Muje tumhara sath Mila
Par waqakt nhi
Tum dekh sakti par kha kuch nhi sakti
Tum sath hokar bi door ho
Tum ho mere aas pass
Par awaz dekar kuch kha nhi sakti
Ab to phone bi nhi ki puch lo
Aaj kab aauge
Mere sath hi ho
Par Is sath me wo sath khi chot gaya
Wo intazaar khi chala gaya
Ab to baat karne ko kuch nhi
Par bhut kuch khna hai
Shikayte hai, shikwa hai
Par khne ko shabd khi kho gaye
Jane kyu is sath se wo apnapaan khi kho gaya
Kese kho tumse ki
Aaj mai tumhe dekh choo sakti hu
Par kuch kha nhi sakti
Jaane kyu……..

Scared ?

I am scared, very much scared with this corona. I am frustrated, tired. Don’t know what to do.

Everyone advised some says take precautions all will be good, so what are the precautions Don’t go out, use a mask, don’t have life.

Some say live your life, the corona is not that much impacted, when I ask, people, kids are dying and being a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister I am not ready to lose my loved one or don’t want to leave them alone.

Some say trust in God, yes I do but when I see hospitals, crying, my beliefs start falling. Yes God is among us what if God is trying to erase us and try to get new humans, trust me I have many more thoughts like that.

I took all precautions, then I have to go to the society, for the first birthday of your near one, the marriage of your close one, celebrate the special days which is important for your loved one but you are asking for a virtual celebration and nobody understands you, they forced you to join it and the best thing they say to convince you what if it is the last one. That dame excuse shattered you, you want to join but you don’t want to expose. Especially don’t want to expose your kid to that virus.

Your baby who becomes toddlers now they are missing their childhood in the home. Your 5-year-old kid knows about corona but does not know how to play with friends. For him, friends are like cocomelon. How painful it is. When you allow to play him with other kids and then he sneezes with normal cold and other kids’ parents stop their kids to play with him, it is not their fault but this is happening.

This is all thoughts and no solution and end of the day only one thing please God please make this corona thing disappear or give us a solution. I want to enjoy the happy moment with family, friends now no more virtual world. Want to go them, hug them, hold them.

I am waiting for the morning when no mask, no bad news, I can see the smile, kids playing together, parks are full, I know this time will pass, we are human, we know fighting, we will win. It’s good to talk, yes every one somehow scared, we are here for each other, I shared with you, if you want I am here, Maybe I have nothing to say but you feel relief after sharing like me. Thanks for listing me πŸ™‚

Save Earth

Made by my kid

Save Earth it’s a good concept which everybody needs to understand. We are the ones who are polluting the earth. At my time of schooling, they did not teach those concepts. My son is in kindergarten and they are teaching him this thing, I am happy, and when he makes this I feel proud.

He learns things like through the dirty in the trash, doesn’t through the dirty in rivers, uses public transport so we can make less air pollution, don’t loud, don’t horn the cars, these all things helps to make earth happy. Good things right. We teach kids and expect them to apply in life. Sometimes there are punishments if they don’t do as we are teaching.

So here is the problem we are teaching them all the good things to save the earth, but same time we are teaching them don’t apply in real life. For example, no loud, no vehicle horns during the traffic but is it possible. No, I did that and others too, when he ask not to do or why I making noise pollution so… I have nothing to say, what should I explain to him. For rituals purpose at my place we have to take bath in the river, we through things into the river again he is there why?

There are lots of things it’s only some of them, there are lots of why it’s good to teach them. But it will be perfect if whatever we are teaching first we apply in our life and then teach them. Because here we are giving them the wrong impression, whatever you learn not for life, Is this right? I try, yes very difficult but still, I decided to teach him with the actions.

How many certificates in a life we can have?

Interesting questions right, even when I heard it first time I feel the same. Is there any counting for them?

We are human, we are learners, we can get as many as certificates we want, is it right? So how can we count?

If google, there are lots of people who make records for holding the maximum number of certificates, they did hard work, must say.

But what is the count for a minimum number of certificates?

As per I think in whole life if a person doesn’t do anything still he gets at least two certificates. A birth and A death certificate, other than that he needs to do something but for those, that just happens.

If you agree share your views, when I got this idea I feel it was funny and interesting.

I am scared !

Currently, I have 104f fever but my body is normal, no heating, no runny nose nothing even no weakness. I can do yoga right now with that much energy I have.

That scares me, even my doctor says a little strange but it happens sometimes.

I am scared not for me, for my family. It scares me like a hell. I am crossing the figures.

God knows when this corona thing will vanish from our lives when we can see fever as a normal fever nothing to worry about. Life just started, we are about to overcome and again that fear. God, we are your kid, if you are punishing us for mistakes, we are deeply sorry. but now seems only you can help us.

Fun in the life #8

We visit grandma and grandpa home for vacations, my kid meets with his cousin after a long time.

Me: baby, share your toys with your cousin

My kid: okay

When I am back no toys there.

Me: Where is all toysπŸ€”

My kid: I hid inside the almirah because baby says please put all the toys inside, I don’t want to play ( baby is 9 months old).

Me: Is it true?

My kid : ask her, she says like mamamama

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Since then all are toys only inside the almirah. 😜

If something happens with you, do share. Keep enjoying life😊😊

I love you !

I love you my sweetheart,

I love you more than anything,

Now we are husband and wife,

Yes things changed,

We fight a lot, instead love a lot,

I don’t remember when we had date,

We sit and talk, but it’s Home not us,

Or Home and us becomes One,

Yes we are husband and wife,

We don’t love like teenagers, we love like couple,

Now we can not stay together but we can not stay a part,

That’s us, funny but yes

I get it this the way we are going along,

I am happy, I with you,

On our 60th anniversary. I want to sit with you, complain about you,

I want to see that oldy look on your face and I will say with wicked smile, I knew that

That’s the way I want to celebrate, my love.

I know you will still not say anything, as always you will smile and will give me sweet look,

Love you my dear for, it’s only 6 years we are together,

For me it’s only 6 minutes, I want to annoy you more my love ❀️

Acceptance ?

Solution of the problem or Starting of the problem?

The first sentence covers all, when I think about, I feel, I am on two boats. there is something which I accept happily, and some are which I don’t want to accept, but I have too. That is the reason I came up with this thought

It happens to everyone, even it happened with you also, but there is a slite twist which I observe for myself, I want people to accept me the way I am, but when it comes to me, I accept them on my conditions, please don’t judge me, being a human I am what I am (see I told you πŸ˜›)

So the first point, the cause of the issues is, if they accept me, I am happy, and we are good, but when they don’t accept boom. On the other side of the coin, when I open my heart for someone, you must do the same thing, whether you want or not, but I did so you need to, otherwise boom. (See being a human 😜) . That is the personal thing, so most personal problems come into this criteria either its origin or its end, but simple Acceptance.

When it comes to society, there are lots of unwritten rules. When we accept them, we are in there. Otherwise, you are out. Sometimes the rules are solutions for people, but sometimes they are not. The rules are by the people for the people, like “Marriage in early age when they are kid”. Some people still follow it. If you don’t, they will force you or punishment.

The moral of the story, you have to accept.

Being a people or society, we accept those things which are unacceptable. Family violence, criminals, especially child abusers, Why we allow them. Everyone deserves a second chance, but if someone is not changing himself and threat to the people, then why are we Accepting?

We have lots of things around us, like an Autistic person/kid, physically challenged one, the people who are in some kind of trauma or witness of any crime, But we don’t want to accept them in our home. We ignored them, let them feel left alone. The worst we say bad words in front of them. You have no idea how it feels. Things happen, but that’s not their fault, but we name it like that. We accept the criminal but don’t want to the victim. Why do we have that kind of thinking? We are good, sensible people, but still, we are doing this kind of discrimination.

What we want to accept, is a personal choice. But please do accept the person who is in pain. The pain is not by choice. he gets it, can say by luck or someone did. But now he is with him, we can not take the pain, but when we accept him as he is, that gives him something good.

Acceptance comes from the heart, not from the mind. It’s the way I think. it may vary for everyone as per their surroundings. I love to hear you, What is your acceptance.